Sandra, I found your note next to the Bee.

"Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus --- and he was in NYC and is now in LA where there are 49 Sandy Beaches. Namely, --HAWLTWTDFWSWWTTAISHMPTFG2MMDTCLMTIPTATETGTMOOBTTB --PER -WIKI Please understand that I’ve only seen one and only about 75-80% of it. So, you are new to me. The Angels/Spirts told me this and I need to let you know, please understand that. The message has both some encryption and encoding of words to figure out who it should go to, and I know with your intelligent you can do that. I am not from the area, so my options are limited. I know you can understand that. You need to slow yourself down somewhat. You are driving yourself the wrong way …. Get back on track.. You need to have more patience’s with yourself and find comfort in it Spend this time with family and yourself ( as much time as possible for you) do not worry about what you want for yourself. It will come in time,. You cannot control it. –-- Understand that. You may in your own way feel kind of lost, but you will get past this, , and it will be the best thing that ever happened to you. Have Faith. You feel very alone sometimes -----especially (mostly) at night when all is quiet around you. Find Peace and comfort in that and do not let your mind run wild, that is not good for you. ---- And looks like you may have told a few about this loneliness and that’s okay but leave it at that as no one else needs to know that. Somewhat of a secret ---and that’s okay but keep it that way. Be careful with someone here, or someone coming into the picture, as it may not be what you think it is and will not become. Stay grounded here. It will be easy for you to get off track here. Go slow. Remember this. Starting in mid-February, you should start getting a full body scan, about every 6 to 9 months. blood work at least 2 times per year. Both for a while. 24-36 months and maybe longer……,Including all the routine tests that are recommended. Also get checked for others gene mutations i.e.; BRCA1, BRCA2, KRAS2, CDKN2A, STK11, TP53, PRSS1, etc. You are kind, and forthright and continue doing that. Do not let the current times change that in you. Keep it going…. I mean no harm. I’m only doing what I was asked to do. Think and be positive and embrace this, and go from here. The rest is up to you. Do not lose your own self. I truly hope this helps you at this time. If they give me anything else for you, I will get it to you. Love and Peace